Hey you all, I have a serious post for you all today. I am officially 32 weeks and a few days and into my third trimester.
This is something I never thought that I would be sharing but I just have too. I am surprised I even got a post done to be honest. This is my third pregnancy and I am really feeling it. Last week was really rough for me. I felt so overwhelmed and tired, all I wanted to do was sleep. Of course that is not possible with my two kids with one in school and one here at home with me. I Just felt an overwhelming feeling of anxiety I guess. I did not feel like doing my daily task which is cooking, cleaning, laundry, or housework in general. At one point I was crying because I just could not bring myself to do anything, but I felt anxious because I hate having things dirty. I felt like I might have been getting into a depressed mood. I wasn’t sure what to do. Luckily my mom came over one day to help me with the house and she ended up taking my son to spend the night with her so I could relax by myself for a day.
So I got a little break and was able to relax and I talked to my spouse and my mom about how I felt and it made me feel a little bit better. I know it wasn’t depression it is more of an anxious feeling. As Kai is growing more and I am getting heavier it is just so hard for me. I am definitely over being pregnant and I can’t wait until Kai is here. I want my body back and to feel somewhat normal again. I hardly sleep because I have to use the restroom about every hour at night and then I am tossing and turning because I can’t get comfortable. I know that I need to make it these last few weeks for Kai which is what makes it bearable, but best believe I am still complaining every chance I get.
I never had anxiety/depression feelings before this and even though I am dealing with it, I did talk to my closest people to me and mentioned it to my doctor because I would definitely not want it to turn into something more than I can handle. I am doing much better this week and feel like I just needed a mental break and just to not put so much pressure on myself if I can’t do everything. I know that sometimes I just need to stop and sit down. I am glad that I have mentioned it to my doctors and feel confident that if I know I need further help with it that it is possible. I also know that for me pregnancy isn’t always Rainbows and Cupcakes. Yes I have been excited and still am excited but doesn’t mean that I cant have feelings about wanting to be done with being pregnant. Carrying a child is hard work and changes you. I felt like writing this post because I know I can’t be alone in that feeling and that if anyone has felt that way as well that it is okay. I am NOT a bad mom for feeling this way.
Thank you all for stopping by and taking the time to read my post.
Disclaimer: I am not a medical professional and these are my own opinions. Please seek advice from a medical professional if you are feeling this way and need to speak with someone.
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